HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY YVONNE! 27 oct 2008

May peace be with her. God bless :D
Thanks for the gathering on 26 Oct 2008 with the tk brothers and sisters plus me, emma, victor.

TOTALLY GREAT!

Betty:D
P.S. Thanks for the card, vonne. remembering the blessings..



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Special thanks to:

My colleagues (Mei Ling, Gina, Saddon, Uncle, Alvin, Yellow)
-making up a lunch birthday for me:)

My Gang(Sihua, Dawn, Colin)
-the presents and ktv plus mahjong session ;D

Seri
Emma
Mei Xing
Yvonne
Jonathan
Yunfeng
Jasmine
Amanda
Rachel
- For the blessings given by them.

Siok Hwee
Yi Jing
- For remembering my birthday and their blessings:)

PAPA MAMA = remembering my birthday!

Most importantly. THANK LORD for granting me this simple wishes of mine!
May peace be with them.

God Bless:D!

Happy birthday MR GOH - for having the same birthday as me!haha:)

Hope GOD could save them one day for those who are not saved yet.!

BEST REGARDS,
BETTY :)
22 10 2008.

I think my life is more than a life-learning story than a disaster.

From primary school till now, I don't have much friends left.
The most affecting issue will be MY JC LIFE.

Let's begin my story.

My first three months class is P24 for which majority of class is girls.
I remember we have 5 guys, the rest girls - higher mother tongue class.
The first person i met here is JM. A nice and friendly girl, she said she is boyish but i felt that she is a gentle girl. We kind of QUITE clique. Slowly the class bonds - the chinese students has become a bigger clique and we named ourselves " yea stun pai "
Due to the fact that PC's quote is yea and CH's quote is stun.
haha. THis is the class that make me feel no boundaries and can let me forever forget the bad memories i had in the past. We have this female student which i dislike ...(due to jealousy) then i left her out of the class and i criticised her.

she and some of our class students left for others jc and poly.
The clique left only me, JM, HY, AG, FF. - four of us. There were 10 of us in the first place.
We were good classmates and friends. Through HY, I got to know B whom in turn become my BF. but due to misunderstandings, we broke up. Here comes the turnover for me- one day, i made JM angry. During lunch, they walk away first and as such i dun dare to sit with her so i sat with others. But before that i remember once they went off themselves, leaving me alone behind with no seats and so i have to sit with others.
That time my instinct had already told me" betty you have done something wrong again"
From that lunch onwards, we thus in one day we have become enemies.

Year 1 passes here comes year 2. This thing go on unsolved. I was wanting to salvage the relationship from that day till now.
The whole class hated me.
LL said she cant tolerate me anymore. SX clique just see me pathetic then "fu yan" me.
I remember yi jing say to seri : you cant tolerate betty de...

For the criticism i have put on others... i have received twice the amount of the taste which is equals to retribution. what comes around comes about.
i have learnt this lesson forever in my mind.

But in my life, JM and HY play a great part in my life. I even tried to salvage the relationship but i failed. There are the ones helped the most, JM helped me with my relationship matters and HY helped me in movtitate me to study. but soon i left them, my grades went down.

Now, i have worked for almost a year plus.. i have understand what i have gone wrong. I often speak wrong and offend others. if that day i didnt complained to the tutor- JM werent angry. IF i could sit with them and try apologizing or explaining to them, things werent be like that. Escaping must be the least thing to do while dealling with problems. Past is Past, what's done cannot be undone, A injury is caused and therefore a scar will be left. Lets move on but leaving this past as a lesson to be learnt and learn to change for the better.

May god bless JM coming A levels successful and HY university life and coming exams successful. and importantly health. haj la lu leh. Amen.

Warmes Regards,
Betty. :)

ok today was a tiring day, last night i couldnt sleep... flip around.. three o clock then sleep la! same timetable. same teachers. same subjects.

but ct period is abit of different. we have our SAF choir to perform for us! not bad sia. someone called charles know how to beat box. ms yap was sabo on stage. the guys sang a song for her! omg ! damn funny la. haha

jc ones went on obs. the other jc ones having holiday at home. WHAT ABOUT US ... mugging..

kind of feel weird w/o band prac.

betty:)
looking forward...

clarinet section( biggest section)
clarinetist plus ms luo and mr sim
with senior!
With MR SIM
US only!

let the photos tell the story!
To infinity and beyond.. !

betty:)
miss band lots.

saxophone section

percussion section.

OMG! PEOPLE WE GET A SILVER. IT IS A TOTALLY BREAKTHROUGH!!!

I totally ignore what co ppl says la. they think we are lousy. then be it.
we know we have done our best and it is the nicest we ever played!
WHOOSH! we are the yj winds in our hearts, one for all , all for one! jiayou!

we FEEL the achievements, we cried, we hugged, we cheered, we smiled.
we never give up! we persevere on....
our hard work paid off and gotten us a medal............

must thank you CLARINET SECTION, CLAUDIA, Mr Vincent Goh.
for the best of clarinet section. we sounded as one! haiz pity we did

thank you for ms lim and ms luo care and concern.
mr sim kai suah for the logistics.

lastly MR DARREN SIM, FOR THE BEST GUIDANCE AND TOLERANCE, PERSEVERANCE. he is forever our mr handsome!

betty
-tears of joy.

some photos below.

i completely love 200 pounds beauty. male and female lead super shuai and pretty!!! i cant help thinking of them even my phone is full of them. i have been thinking all this when i am sad or stressed. think of happy thoughts . .. this works!!

i am kind of worry for my section. is very especially for the solo. i wanna tok to her but i dun think she will listen to me. such a failure. she even says got leader mah? haiz i cant blame ppl who dunoe the stress of being a sectional leader. ... dun say le...

bear with it for one week plus and its gone. i am not a clarinetist After 19 may 2007. some sort of cant let go. i hold on to it for 6 years but seems that i am deproving ....... sound like a beginner. is more than that!! ya. i am a bad player. sometimes i make the sound worse. dun think i am goig to continue my clarinet anymore. i am not up to it. stupid me!

feel so sad for mr sim and ms luo.
how i wish we can get GOLD!

betty .
sadded.

i never have been so stressed out before not even in northbrooks band. is it because of the vicious cycle taking place. at the moment i step in yj band- it is pathetic but slowly it makes me a goal to strive better as a band. first is to convince ppl to join >> i remember how hard i try to persuade ppl to join. i tell ppl that we need to make a difference now. but it seems like i am less commited to it now. why ? maybe i not welcomed in band. being disliked. this is my vicious cycle. how hard and difficult to get rid of this route??

today i am damned sharp, clarissa and huixin damn flat! we crashed totally . how??? this problem i come about before. why cant i solve it!!! i am not the betty tht can play so well. in fact i am never a gd player. but i am getting from bad to worse. i am the section leader!!!!my skills are worse than other ppl !!drop to second my low notes cant make it! i am so sad. ppl asked me to not to give up and be determined. i try to be. some how ppl will just breakdown. i have been bottling things up in my heart. i think it is going to be burst anytime anywhere! and maybe the syf is the spark! somehow or rather i regret using DSA to get in JC.

i try to be strong. claudia said leaders have to be strong. i know. i never have cried in being yjc clarinet sectional leader. but i never wanna to be. becos i know i cant do a job of leadership especially comes teaching.

i am a failure. totally sucks off!

betty.
totally cannot make it! :(