ok today was a tiring day, last night i couldnt sleep... flip around.. three o clock then sleep la! same timetable. same teachers. same subjects.

but ct period is abit of different. we have our SAF choir to perform for us! not bad sia. someone called charles know how to beat box. ms yap was sabo on stage. the guys sang a song for her! omg ! damn funny la. haha

jc ones went on obs. the other jc ones having holiday at home. WHAT ABOUT US ... mugging..

kind of feel weird w/o band prac.

betty:)
looking forward...

clarinet section( biggest section)
clarinetist plus ms luo and mr sim
with senior!
With MR SIM
US only!

let the photos tell the story!
To infinity and beyond.. !

betty:)
miss band lots.

saxophone section

percussion section.

OMG! PEOPLE WE GET A SILVER. IT IS A TOTALLY BREAKTHROUGH!!!

I totally ignore what co ppl says la. they think we are lousy. then be it.
we know we have done our best and it is the nicest we ever played!
WHOOSH! we are the yj winds in our hearts, one for all , all for one! jiayou!

we FEEL the achievements, we cried, we hugged, we cheered, we smiled.
we never give up! we persevere on....
our hard work paid off and gotten us a medal............

must thank you CLARINET SECTION, CLAUDIA, Mr Vincent Goh.
for the best of clarinet section. we sounded as one! haiz pity we did

thank you for ms lim and ms luo care and concern.
mr sim kai suah for the logistics.

lastly MR DARREN SIM, FOR THE BEST GUIDANCE AND TOLERANCE, PERSEVERANCE. he is forever our mr handsome!

betty
-tears of joy.

some photos below.

i completely love 200 pounds beauty. male and female lead super shuai and pretty!!! i cant help thinking of them even my phone is full of them. i have been thinking all this when i am sad or stressed. think of happy thoughts . .. this works!!

i am kind of worry for my section. is very especially for the solo. i wanna tok to her but i dun think she will listen to me. such a failure. she even says got leader mah? haiz i cant blame ppl who dunoe the stress of being a sectional leader. ... dun say le...

bear with it for one week plus and its gone. i am not a clarinetist After 19 may 2007. some sort of cant let go. i hold on to it for 6 years but seems that i am deproving ....... sound like a beginner. is more than that!! ya. i am a bad player. sometimes i make the sound worse. dun think i am goig to continue my clarinet anymore. i am not up to it. stupid me!

feel so sad for mr sim and ms luo.
how i wish we can get GOLD!

betty .
sadded.

i never have been so stressed out before not even in northbrooks band. is it because of the vicious cycle taking place. at the moment i step in yj band- it is pathetic but slowly it makes me a goal to strive better as a band. first is to convince ppl to join >> i remember how hard i try to persuade ppl to join. i tell ppl that we need to make a difference now. but it seems like i am less commited to it now. why ? maybe i not welcomed in band. being disliked. this is my vicious cycle. how hard and difficult to get rid of this route??

today i am damned sharp, clarissa and huixin damn flat! we crashed totally . how??? this problem i come about before. why cant i solve it!!! i am not the betty tht can play so well. in fact i am never a gd player. but i am getting from bad to worse. i am the section leader!!!!my skills are worse than other ppl !!drop to second my low notes cant make it! i am so sad. ppl asked me to not to give up and be determined. i try to be. some how ppl will just breakdown. i have been bottling things up in my heart. i think it is going to be burst anytime anywhere! and maybe the syf is the spark! somehow or rather i regret using DSA to get in JC.

i try to be strong. claudia said leaders have to be strong. i know. i never have cried in being yjc clarinet sectional leader. but i never wanna to be. becos i know i cant do a job of leadership especially comes teaching.

i am a failure. totally sucks off!

betty.
totally cannot make it! :(

Claudia today has said a nice speech. her speech touches me and really the vicious cycle of a few members cannot go on anymore. this SYF is critical to us and also at this point the standards rises. i am thinking what if we realli receive bronze. how is everyone going to look on us and how everyone in band going to bear with? i am totally cant bear with. i will cried. i see everyone hard efforts now and then. is their hard efforts going down to the drain or it is giving us something. YJ winds must get what it deserves and not what ppl expect us for! We are not longer the old yj college band. We are the ones going to make a difference to the band. so what our standard is so low , some ppl says only get silver or bronze la, cannot get gold de. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.

i hope to see the day we get a ..........

-betty
-totally stressed up -
take a gd time to listen to our syf choice piece.

YJC winds! jiayou!
for the sch pre syf concert!!!

We can make it!

betty-

long time didnt upload. it has been one month le. i am busy with band and studies la. band has extend their prac to thrice a week. so tired can. and a stack of hwk for me to complete. tutors love to give hwk over weekend as if we are so free. and their subjects is the only subject we are taking.

just gotten back my term two block test results. ok precisely i failed everything with A U grade. so ashaming la. i promise myself to get at least subpass for all. And now i failed. haiz i did study. i think i didnt study much la. quite sad. my parents are extremely disappointed with me. and my aim for next block test is to get all pass. ITS A MUST.

also today i get my project work results. I GOT A C! exactly i expected la.
i knew something has gone wrong with our WR. i feel so sad for yvonne. her speech is damn good! she should get a B. this is already a history we cant change.


SYF judging has rise to its standard. and this is the year whereby we rise our standards to get a silver or better. i am really feel scared and nervous. i dun wanna a bronze. it is to dismoralising. We should play for the music and is the music which brings us the medal . we should not play for the medal, its totally wrong!!! YJ winds has the ability to strive silver or gold. We are not of the standards of bronze. The sound is getting better. i saw things changing as the first step i took in yj band. with only 13 members , we have more than 50 member le.

i dun wish to let ms luo and teachers which has done so much for us. especially mr darren sim. i appreciate what he has done for us despite of what his band get. i could see his anger and sadness that day- wednesday, 11 april 07. although i feel i am a extra and transparent in band and i am not the S.L. that girl is the S.L. but i hope that YJ winds can attain a GOLD and brings the school, teachers, mr sim proud. We have pave a better route for the future generations.

-totally stressed up with band-
betty.

CAMPUS SUPERSTAR AUDITIONS FOR GIRLS is this saturday at toa payoh.

aiyo. i really dunnoe whether to join anot lei. i want fame and glory but i dun have the courage and confidence. my singing has gone down the standard. i cant hit the high notes la. My pitch is swaying. how? omg. i am seeing that i will rejected down the stage. haha and there TONS OF PPL WILL LAUGH AT ME. that is so funny can wahahahahahaha.

i really want to have a try of it. this year is my last year. i dun want to have regrets like last year. but i scared there is more problems coming out. haiz . i am glad to hear that yi jing and siok hwee will go down and support me. but somehow i think last min they will cant go. then in the end i go on my own. omg i can imagine the scene. oso scary.

i can imagine myself on stage. so nervous, my hands trembling. aiyo hope i dun make myself a fool out of it. my aim is to do my best out of it. MUST BE CONFIDENT AND STRONG. betty will never give up on her dream. and hope luck is on my side too.

looking forward to it. betty jiayou.
-biqi-

people says " its hard to be a human" its true. very hard. its all about prefection. But no one will have prefection. ur life is too beautiful. heaven will do something to make things not so prefect. for example, taking away ur favourites or making u suffer from a illness. From pri sch till now, i never have the feeling of having real frens. REal frens that u can really be trusted.

the world only really wants prefection. or else will there conflicts among ppl. haiz.
everyone got their flaws and their gd points. but oftenly ppl see their flaws than ur gd points.
i think i have done alot of bad things in the past. something called retribution is on me. not being superstitous. its really happen. what i treat ppl is coming to me. haha. kind of fake and no scientific backup.

thanks everyone. i have realised how hard to be a human. and how hard is to prefect. never easy. i congrats for those who have achieve prefection. i am ready always to accept lies and xu wei. thans for being xu wei. no one will like to hurt someone. i know what to do now is to avoid and avoid. i dun wish to carry on of what i am doing cos i dun see anypoint of it. no one can attain that prefection. i dun have peers, brains, face, body. now i want fame and glory.

thanks frens for being xu wei and cover it in a nice package. i know u all dun wanna to make me sad. but in the end got looopholes lei got ppl hinted out. i know that u all hate and dislike me. i know u all are saying things behind my back. haha wish me i could disappeared right. wahahahahahahaha. actually i knew everything is my fault. i bring everything on me why should i complain? nono i am not. SORRY FOR APPEARING AND INTERFERING IN UR LIFE.
i caused u alot of troubles. right haha. sorry that i have caused u all to do things against urself. i wasnt there then it will be prefect. i see prefection.

goh bi qi betty is dead in fact she never exists , never once.